Walk to the beach
I walked to the beach on Saturday. I was restless and thought a walk in the sunshine would be better than watching WI lose a basketball game to MN. Once past the barrier it's about a mile from the parking lot to the river. There were a number of others who apparently felt the same. One lady said she wanted to see the sand. Her way of remembering past good times and looking forward to Spring. On the way back I left the trail and walked through the woods. Snow was about midway to my knee. I was a little tired when I got to my car but overall I felt wonderful. I've always liked the out-of-doors. I was a junior in forestry when I found out jobs were very hard to find and switched to chemistry. Tell your grandchildren to try chemistry. It's a great trade, there's always work. I'm getting a kayak. Pat
Connie, when your hubby says hurtful things to you do you let him know how it makes you feel?? He may just be venting himself and insensitive to your feelings. A man insensitive, oh, my can't believe I thought that, lol. Ann
Ann, Yes, he knows. And...as I said...he did later come in and say "SORRY". That's a big one for him. Apologies may have only happened a dozen times in our 7 years together. So, I know he's working on it! I doubt that in his younger years, and previous relationships that ever happened. He has had to have a high wall around his heart due to his previous life circumstances. It's only just beginning to crumble..... And yes, I think he does have a depression problem himself....told him so yesterday in a very tearful conversation about why I think I need to go back on the meds. He listened, and let me cry....but he never said a word. MEN....you think they know why we're upset about something, and the truth is...they often don't even have a clue what's bothering us. During my explanation about why I need to go back on meds, I told him I'd been real weepy because of my approaching birthday. First of all, I don't think he had even thought to remember that my birthday is coming up. And second of all, he wanted to know why turning 55 had me in tears! For God's sake! I don't mind turning 55! My old body wore out at 29 when I had to have my first hysterectomy! Age 29 was when I fell apart....turning 30 didn't even phase me like it does some people! Nor 40; nor 50! And certainly not turning 55 after having a bypass at 54! I'm glad to see 55! MEN....or at least my MAN! He can't put 2 + 2 together and figure out that I'm upset because this would have been my brother's 53rd birthday.....and he's no longer here to share it with me. Nor will he ever be again! It's only been 9 months since he died. He died a horrible agonizing death....and I was his primary caretaker, so I witnessed it 24/7...and had Mom on my hands too. Came home only to collapse into my own triple bypass 2 months later, and shortly thereafter all the gastro pain that led to the gall bladder operation 2 weeks ago. It's been one thing after another with no relief in sight .....and it is all just to raw right now. It's just been a really sucky year, and sometimes I just can't be strong about it. Especially on days that were always special in the past. And, I guess men...or most men...just don't get it that it plays on emotions. So, when he does say something hurtful, I can't let it slide off as easily as I usually do. And he knows when something is wrong because I stop talking. And when mouthy me is quiet.....something is wrong. He just doesn't know what it is. Like I said, he can't put 2 + 2 together and get the right answer sometimes. I don't understand it. When something is bothering him....I can usually figure out WHAT. And when something is bothering me.....he hasn't the faintest idea of what. I guess men can't read our minds. But you would think that with their logistic abilites, they could figure it out! Connie STEVE RAY <ramblingrays@... Connie, when your hubby says hurtful things to you do you let him know how it makes you feel?? He may just be venting himself and insensitive to your feelings. A man insensitive, oh, my can't believe I thought that, lol. Ann Connie Turner
Connie: Mabe he is scared, he might be afraid of loosing you. Anger is one of the emotions that you go through when you loose someone. Just a thought. My little voice tells me that you are going to get back to normal real soon.When spring comes you are going to feel fine. My little voice is never wrong. Steve Y. [INLINE] connie Turner <connieque@... Ann, Yes, he knows. And...as I said...he did later come in and say "SORRY". That's a big one for him. Apologies may have only happened a dozen times in our 7 years together. So, I know he's working on it! I doubt that in his younger years, and previous relationships that ever happened. He has had to have a high wall around his heart due to his previous life circumstances. It's only just beginning to crumble..... And yes, I think he does have a depression problem himself....told him so yesterday in a very tearful conversation about why I think I need to go back on the meds. He listened, and let me cry....but he never said a word. MEN....you think they know why we're upset about something, and the truth is...they often don't even have a clue what's bothering us. During my explanation about why I need to go back on meds, I told him I'd been real weepy because of my approaching birthday. First of all, I don't think he had even thought to remember that my birthday is coming up. And second of all, he wanted to know why turning 55 had me in tears! For God's sake! I don't mind turning 55! My old body wore out at 29 when I had to have my first hysterectomy! Age 29 was when I fell apart....turning 30 didn't even phase me like it does some people! Nor 40; nor 50! And certainly not turning 55 after having a bypass at 54! I'm glad to see 55! MEN....or at least my MAN! He can't put 2 + 2 together and figure out that I'm upset because this would have been my brother's 53rd birthday.....and he's no longer here to share it with me. Nor will he ever be again! It's only been 9 months since he died. He died a horrible agonizing death....and I was his primary caretaker, so I witnessed it 24/7...and had Mom on my hands too. Came home only to collapse into my own triple bypass 2 months later, and shortly thereafter all the gastro pain that led to the gall bladder operation 2 weeks ago. It's been one thing after another with no relief in sight .....and it is all just to raw right now. It's just been a really sucky year, and sometimes I just can't be strong about it. Especially on days that were always special in the past. And, I guess men...or most men...just don't get it that it plays on emotions. So, when he does say something hurtful, I can't let it slide off as easily as I usually do. And he knows when something is wrong because I stop talking. And when mouthy me is quiet.....something is wrong. He just doesn't know what it is. Like I said, he can't put 2 + 2 together and get the right answer sometimes. I don't understand it. When something is bothering him....I can usually figure out WHAT. And when something is bothering me.....he hasn't the faintest idea of what. I guess men can't read our minds. But you would think that with their logistic abilites, they could figure it out! Connie STEVE RAY <ramblingrays@... Connie, when your hubby says hurtful things to you do you let him know how it makes you feel?? He may just be venting himself and insensitive to your feelings. A man insensitive, oh, my can't believe I thought that, lol. Ann Connie Turner
Steve, I really do think I fair better in weather with more sunlight. I know there is a name/condition for that, but I can't recall it at the moment. (more pump head) Spring and Fall are my favorites. Summer is usually too hot in Texas for me, but since the bypass, my body temperature stays cooler, so maybe this summer will be more pleasant. And since, I'm not working at this time....I will probably get a chance to enjoy the pool this year. In past years, I always worked so many hours, that I never really used it. And I did get in it a little this past summer right before my surgery, because I was still out of work from quitting to take care of my brother. I had the chance to enjoy it for the first time in many, many years. So, yep...bring on the sunshine. Connie Steven Young <say309@... Connie: Mabe he is scared, he might be afraid of loosing you. Anger is one of the emotions that you go through when you loose someone. Just a thought. My little voice tells me that you are going to get back to normal real soon.When spring comes you are going to feel fine. My little voice is never wrong. Steve Y. [INLINE] connie Turner <connieque@... Ann, Yes, he knows. And...as I said...he did later come in and say "SORRY". That's a big one for him. Apologies may have only happened a dozen times in our 7 years together. So, I know he's working on it! I doubt that in his younger years, and previous relationships that ever happened. He has had to have a high wall around his heart due to his previous life circumstances. It's only just beginning to crumble..... And yes, I think he does have a depression problem himself....told him so yesterday in a very tearful conversation about why I think I need to go back on the meds. He listened, and let me cry....but he never said a word. MEN....you think they know why we're upset about something, and the truth is...they often don't even have a clue what's bothering us. During my explanation about why I need to go back on meds, I told him I'd been real weepy because of my approaching birthday. First of all, I don't think he had even thought to remember that my birthday is coming up. And second of all, he wanted to know why turning 55 had me in tears! For God's sake! I don't mind turning 55! My old body wore out at 29 when I had to have my first hysterectomy! Age 29 was when I fell apart....turning 30 didn't even phase me like it does some people! Nor 40; nor 50! And certainly not turning 55 after having a bypass at 54! I'm glad to see 55! MEN....or at least my MAN! He can't put 2 + 2 together and figure out that I'm upset because this would have been my brother's 53rd birthday.....and he's no longer here to share it with me. Nor will he ever be again! It's only been 9 months since he died. He died a horrible agonizing death....and I was his primary caretaker, so I witnessed it 24/7...and had Mom on my hands too. Came home only to collapse into my own triple bypass 2 months later, and shortly thereafter all the gastro pain that led to the gall bladder operation 2 weeks ago. It's been one thing after another with no relief in sight .....and it is all just to raw right now. It's just been a really sucky year, and sometimes I just can't be strong about it. Especially on days that were always special in the past. And, I guess men...or most men...just don't get it that it plays on emotions. So, when he does say something hurtful, I can't let it slide off as easily as I usually do. And he knows when something is wrong because I stop talking. And when mouthy me is quiet.....something is wrong. He just doesn't know what it is. Like I said, he can't put 2 + 2 together and get the right answer sometimes. I don't understand it. When something is bothering him....I can usually figure out WHAT. And when something is bothering me.....he hasn't the faintest idea of what. I guess men can't read our minds. But you would think that with their logistic abilites, they could figure it out! Connie STEVE RAY <ramblingrays@... Connie, when your hubby says hurtful things to you do you let him know how it makes you feel?? He may just be venting himself and insensitive to your feelings. A man insensitive, oh, my can't believe I thought that, lol. Ann Connie Turner Connie Turner